Properly managing

I catch myself being one of two types of extremes, non controllably talking about my feelings or not acknowledging them and shoving them to the back of my head long enough to drive my self crazy. I believe one of the most important things you can do to keep yourself sane is knowing how to properly deal with your emotions. It is so important to always be honest with yourself. I realize that I have always been good at hiding my emotions from others and myself. I surround myself with people that are a good time and use my free time doing things to distract myself from actually having to deal with my problems. Things I usually look forward to like being alone I dread because that would give me time to think. I don't find myself picking up a pen and a note pad because then I would catch my self writing how I feel then I'd have to think about it. The older I get the more I realize that this is not the most healthy route. I keep everything balled inside myself until I'm angry and bitter and it then becomes impossible for me to distract myself and I find myself having a break down in the middle of the night in my sisters car. These have always been my lowest points and my biggest flaw. Someone once told me my biggest problem is that I hate to ask for help, and I realized that this was true. Us as humans can get so easily wrapped in our everyday lives we can forget to stop and realize that we need time to reflect and work on ourselves. It can be so hard to admit to someone that something is wrong and that you may sometimes need help. There is nothing wrong with not always having your shit together! here is nothing wrong with asking for help. There is nothing wrong with talking to someone without feeling like you are being a bother. Sometimes talking about how you are feeling is not the easiest thing to do but one thing for sure is you will always feel better after.